By Rachel Fatyanov
I struggled with a lot of loneliness, depression, anxiety, and moodiness during and immediately after my college years.
When I felt I had reached my threshold of emotional suffering, I dove into countless self-help articles on happiness, Buddhism/Zen, yoga, and I dabbled in New Age and occult practices – reading books, daily horoscopes, visiting psychics, palm-readers, exploring meditation, and crystal/energy healing.
I just wanted to know, like many do, "What do I do with my life?!"
All the while I believed God existed, but replacing the name of God with "Universe" felt so much easier.
The last straw was when I paid nearly $200 for an online chakra healing program that PROMISED happiness, forever. I was alone in my room on the computer, desperately awaiting the live introductory seminar that I "couldn't miss." A 10-second countdown began, and suddenly, so clearly in my heart I heard, "You don't need this, turn off the computer." And I closed the laptop within the last few seconds.
"So now what?" I asked myself. Over the next couple of days came a lot of revelation - I was not going to find the happiness and healing I needed in any man-made program. Such things come from God, and they are free and everlasting!
I came across everystudent.com through a Google search on Jesus. His name was not new to me, but I was ready to know who He was/is, and what makes Him the cornerstone of the Christian faith. For the first time, I understood what Jesus was offering me and felt so invited to be in a relationship with Him. I was really excited, knowing my desperate search for healing and happiness was over, and that I could be covered in His love.
I prayed a prayer of salvation on my knees in my room. After finally surrendering and letting God in, He has been at work in every area of my life ever since.
In retrospect, my interest and involvement in New Age and occult practices was driven by a hunger for hidden knowledge, wisdom, immediate answers to all my wonderings, and life guidance. Like many others, I just wanted a sense of control and purpose for my life.
Ever since coming to know God through Jesus Christ, I realized that He has already revealed to us everything we need to know, and it's in His Word - the Bible.
I want to warn people to not be deceived by anyone who claims to have the power to reveal the unknown to you about your future. I fell into the trap of worshipping the "Universe", until I came to know the Creator of the Universe - the One who spoke the stars, the sun, and the moon into existence.
For anyone struggling to answer the same question I was, "What do I do with my life?!", the answer is simple. There is nothing to do but to seek after and follow Jesus. Everything else falls into place. I cannot imagine my life without God - He is my heavenly father who meets my needs, a comforter who hears my every cry, an advocate who fights my battles, a wise friend who guides my every step, and so much more.
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